I know my last update sounded bleak and heavy. I felt I should update you on how I am doing. I am still wrestling through things, but not as much. I have had to let go of some more things in my life, ones that were especially close to me and therefor hard to give up. I’m hurt and I am wounded from a lot of things hitting at once. However the great news is that I don’t have to stay there. Even now, the Lord has been healing my heart and speaking to me about the things that I have given up. He has taught me how to trust him and taught me even more about his perfect timing. It has been so good for me because I have experienced way more hope than what I expected. The Lord has been really giving me a positive outlook on life and I trust that whatever he has for me is better than what I could have imagined. I’m also trusting that if he wants to work in my heart and allow me to have some of those things back into my life, then he will. If he thinks that they are not good for me than he will offer me something better. I have seen the pages that I have authored on my own and I have asked the Lord to go back and rewrite them because his plans for me are so much better.
Also, AIM is sending a friend of mine (Joe Rogers) from the office to minister to me in this time. I am looking forward to praying through everything and seeing what is emotion and what is the Lord’s plans for me. I am also looking forward to a time of healing and self-discovery because I desire to be restored by the Lord. Please pray for Joe and I as we meet together to sort things out. Pray for discernment and wisdom as we discuss some deep hurts.
I feel good about taking a backseat and letting my co-leaders take more of a leadership role with the team and just being more of a set-up behind the scenes guy. The Lord has also showed me that he is going to use them to bring more healing and restoration to me so that I can leave here at a good place. I’m really excited to see what the next three months looks like.
Please pray for a house for the team in Nairobi. they arrive tomorrow night and the one I had fell through.
Please pray that my time with Joe will be both fun and fruitful.
Pray for my heart and mind as I still have some confusion about where my life is heading.
Pray for Dawn as she is still finding her place in Thailand.
Pray for wisdom and discernment as she seeks out what the Lord would have her be involved in.
Pray for them as they try to help start and look for business opportunities so that the women can support themselves.
Pray that as the Lord is breaking Dawn’s heart for the people, that he would also protect her from taking on burdens or situations that she was not meant to carry.
